I love Gayl, always have and always will. But there is more than that. I respect her. She ALWAYS tried to do the right thing, the moral thing. No matter how great the cost or how difficult, she always tried to do what was right and honorable and proper. She always tried to do unto others as she would have done to her, even when no one did right by her. She always tried to reflect Christ in her life and show others, by her actions, the way to the Lord. This is not expressive enough by half. Its this way, in a time when most people take the easy way out, lie, cheat, steal, Gayl had firm Christian principles and stuck to them. I always admired her for that, she is a good person.
I love her very much.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Why Not Me?
Why Not me? Why could I not be allowed to take Gayl's place and spare her the pain and suffering? I do nothing of any real worth, just do computers for the government. She is a true doctor. She saved lives. She is compassionate and caring. She gave freely of her medical knowledge to anyone, without charge. Think of that, a doctor working to help a patient for free! She was a wonder to behold when fighting to save a patient or preserve them from worse damage. She would be covered in blood, ordering nurses hither and yon, using equipment, making decisions almost faster than you could keep up; as God is my witness, no one ever worked harder to serve each and every person they treated. Or when someone was dying, if they were alone she would sit with them and comfort them as they met eternity. What a wonderful person. What a wonderful and unique doctor. And all she got in return were false accusations by Nifolg-like attorneys and state bureaucrats. No one in power ever said that she was a great doctor. Well, she is and always will be. She loved life, loved people, and served her patients. Compared to her, I do nothing for mankind of any worth or lasting value. I work hard and do my job; but at the end of the day I just go home and work. She came home with lives saved and people's lifes' turned around for the better. She cared for everyone, and gave freely. So, why could I not take her place in the tumbril? I have nothing of value, but could have if I had saved her. But I even failed in that. With cancer, there is no tomorrow; we were 4 and 1 against cancer but it only takes one defeat. I would have taken her place at any time and spared her any or all she endured, but was never given the chance. So, why not me? What is so great about me that I should live instead of her? Nothing comes to mind. She is the best person I will ever know, and the one truly good thing I could have done is taken her place, but I could not find a way to do so. A wonderful doctor and person is lost to mankind; and no one notices. Gayl is the greatest. Know this, Gayl is the greatest.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
The LORD is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the LORD forever.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Gayl and the Justice System: Part 2
20 years ago Gayl was wrongly accused of violating a boy's privacy by treating him for his own attempted suicide. She had him admitted for observation. He sued for tortious interference in a contract, since the admittance cost him his scholarship. 5 years and $1.5 million later, over $200,000 from our pockets, she was found not guilty and all charges were dismissed with prejudice. She was innocent, victim of a legal system gone mad and ambitious, glory hungry prosecutors. We wrote to everyone we could think of about the terrible precedent this set. Now, at Duke, all can see how crazy the law has become and how low lawyers have sunk. They are without honor, without morals, without scruple. They have no concern for the law or their clients, They worship money. Think not, consider the following by Dennis Prager:
America's news media, an amoral university, an opportunistic district attorney, and a police department that seems to have collaborated in framing innocent students all combined to nearly destroy the lives of three innocent young men -- members of the Duke University lacrosse team.
The attorney general of North Carolina announced that all charges -- of rape, sexual assault and whatever other charges a mendacious young woman got Mike Nifong to bring against the Duke lacrosse team players -- were being dropped. He pronounced the students "innocent," not merely "not guilty." And the attorney general also declared Nifong a "rogue prosecutor."
The lessons of this terrible story are obvious, but given the political correctness of our time and the inverted values that prevail among America's elites -- particularly the news media, the universities and the legal profession -- these lessons will rarely be expressed, let alone learned.
First, the rape of a name is also a rape. A false accusation of rape can be as devastating to a man and his family as a real rape can be to a woman and her family. Sometimes a real rape is more destructive; sometimes the rape of a name is more destructive. It is therefore a grave injustice not to prosecute the woman who brought these false charges.
Second, moral Americans of every race must acknowledge that our society has a problem of anti-white prejudice in parts of the African American community. Proportionally, it seems that more blacks unfairly mistrust whites than whites unfairly mistrust blacks. Mike Nifong won his race for district attorney largely by appealing to this prejudice.
Third, it is utterly unjust that the families of the Duke lacrosse players had to pay millions of dollars in attorneys fees to defend their sons against a lying woman and a morally corrupt district attorney. Such injustices happen every day because the American legal system, unlike that of other countries such as Great Britain, forces those who win lawsuits wrongly brought against them to pay all their legal bills. Trial lawyers and the Democratic Party, which trial lawyers fund, prevent all reform in this area in order to allow frivolous lawsuits and their accompanying high lawyer profits to continue. That is why three young men who did nothing wrong have cost their families much, if not all, of their life savings.
Fourth, while Duke University has good individuals, like most universities today, Duke is a moral wasteland. Eight-eight professors, abetted by Duke's president, created a mob mentality against the young men not unlike that of a lynch mob. Of course, nothing will be done to Duke's president or to those professors. To get fired as the president of an elite American university, one must suggest that men and women are innately different. Politically incorrect truth telling -- not race-, gender- or class-baiting of whites, athletes or males -- gets you fired. And Duke alumni will continue to fund Duke, just as Columbia University alumni are funding Columbia with record donations despite Columbia's reluctance to discipline radical students who violently disrupted a conservative speaker on campus last year.
Fifth, the moral vision of much of the Left, which led the anti-white athlete hysteria, was revealed again. It views the world not as a conflict between good and evil but between white and black, male and female, and rich and poor. The athletes were rich and white and male. For many on the Left, that alone made them villains. As a general proposition, subject to exceptions that accompany all generalizations, the Left has considerably more compassion for groups (racial, ethnic, socioeconomic and sexual groups it favors) than for individuals.
Sixth, any time Al Sharpton and Jesse Jackson get in front of cameras on a race matter, assume that they are there to inflame, not heal. We await their apologies to the three Duke students. But we are also awaiting Al Sharpton's apologies to those he libeled in the Tawana Brawley rape hoax.
Seventh, the next time you hear that someone was indicted by a grand jury, unless you have knowledge of the case, or reason suggests possible guilt, don't assume it. As Joe Cheshire, one of the accused boys' lawyers said, "A grand jury would indict a ham sandwich for the death of a pig."
Eighth, it is time to drop the anti-male bigotry and either hide the names of accused rapists -- at least until their indictment -- or also reveal the names of their accusers. Short of that, the press and justice system surely have the moral obligation to reveal the names of false accusers of rape. It is almost beyond belief (but little is anymore) that news media like The New York Times will still not reveal the name of the lying accuser. For the record, it is Crystal Mangum. Shame on her and her supporters.
I weep for those boys and their families. And I fear for America.
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Nifong destroyed the boys. Other lawyers destroyed us, and broke Gayl's heart. I still weep for Gayl and for our country. She suffered for no reason, and no one cared. Lawyers are destroying our nation, our future, and the lives of every citizen. Gayl was falsely accused, and it says much for her character that she never gave up, even though of all her friends and family only I stood by her. She is a better woman than almost any person in the world, and I will admire and love her always.
America's news media, an amoral university, an opportunistic district attorney, and a police department that seems to have collaborated in framing innocent students all combined to nearly destroy the lives of three innocent young men -- members of the Duke University lacrosse team.
The attorney general of North Carolina announced that all charges -- of rape, sexual assault and whatever other charges a mendacious young woman got Mike Nifong to bring against the Duke lacrosse team players -- were being dropped. He pronounced the students "innocent," not merely "not guilty." And the attorney general also declared Nifong a "rogue prosecutor."
The lessons of this terrible story are obvious, but given the political correctness of our time and the inverted values that prevail among America's elites -- particularly the news media, the universities and the legal profession -- these lessons will rarely be expressed, let alone learned.
First, the rape of a name is also a rape. A false accusation of rape can be as devastating to a man and his family as a real rape can be to a woman and her family. Sometimes a real rape is more destructive; sometimes the rape of a name is more destructive. It is therefore a grave injustice not to prosecute the woman who brought these false charges.
Second, moral Americans of every race must acknowledge that our society has a problem of anti-white prejudice in parts of the African American community. Proportionally, it seems that more blacks unfairly mistrust whites than whites unfairly mistrust blacks. Mike Nifong won his race for district attorney largely by appealing to this prejudice.
Third, it is utterly unjust that the families of the Duke lacrosse players had to pay millions of dollars in attorneys fees to defend their sons against a lying woman and a morally corrupt district attorney. Such injustices happen every day because the American legal system, unlike that of other countries such as Great Britain, forces those who win lawsuits wrongly brought against them to pay all their legal bills. Trial lawyers and the Democratic Party, which trial lawyers fund, prevent all reform in this area in order to allow frivolous lawsuits and their accompanying high lawyer profits to continue. That is why three young men who did nothing wrong have cost their families much, if not all, of their life savings.
Fourth, while Duke University has good individuals, like most universities today, Duke is a moral wasteland. Eight-eight professors, abetted by Duke's president, created a mob mentality against the young men not unlike that of a lynch mob. Of course, nothing will be done to Duke's president or to those professors. To get fired as the president of an elite American university, one must suggest that men and women are innately different. Politically incorrect truth telling -- not race-, gender- or class-baiting of whites, athletes or males -- gets you fired. And Duke alumni will continue to fund Duke, just as Columbia University alumni are funding Columbia with record donations despite Columbia's reluctance to discipline radical students who violently disrupted a conservative speaker on campus last year.
Fifth, the moral vision of much of the Left, which led the anti-white athlete hysteria, was revealed again. It views the world not as a conflict between good and evil but between white and black, male and female, and rich and poor. The athletes were rich and white and male. For many on the Left, that alone made them villains. As a general proposition, subject to exceptions that accompany all generalizations, the Left has considerably more compassion for groups (racial, ethnic, socioeconomic and sexual groups it favors) than for individuals.
Sixth, any time Al Sharpton and Jesse Jackson get in front of cameras on a race matter, assume that they are there to inflame, not heal. We await their apologies to the three Duke students. But we are also awaiting Al Sharpton's apologies to those he libeled in the Tawana Brawley rape hoax.
Seventh, the next time you hear that someone was indicted by a grand jury, unless you have knowledge of the case, or reason suggests possible guilt, don't assume it. As Joe Cheshire, one of the accused boys' lawyers said, "A grand jury would indict a ham sandwich for the death of a pig."
Eighth, it is time to drop the anti-male bigotry and either hide the names of accused rapists -- at least until their indictment -- or also reveal the names of their accusers. Short of that, the press and justice system surely have the moral obligation to reveal the names of false accusers of rape. It is almost beyond belief (but little is anymore) that news media like The New York Times will still not reveal the name of the lying accuser. For the record, it is Crystal Mangum. Shame on her and her supporters.
I weep for those boys and their families. And I fear for America.
_________________________________________________________________________________________________
Nifong destroyed the boys. Other lawyers destroyed us, and broke Gayl's heart. I still weep for Gayl and for our country. She suffered for no reason, and no one cared. Lawyers are destroying our nation, our future, and the lives of every citizen. Gayl was falsely accused, and it says much for her character that she never gave up, even though of all her friends and family only I stood by her. She is a better woman than almost any person in the world, and I will admire and love her always.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
The All Powerful God
23rd Psalm
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Daniel 3:16-21
Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-nego replied to the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to give you an answer concerning this matter. If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us out of thine hand, O king. But even if He does not, let it be known to you, O king, that we are not going to serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up. Nebuchadnezzar was so filled with anger toward Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego that his face turned red. He ordered that the furnace should be heated seven times hotter than normal. And he commanded the most mighty men that were in his army to bind Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, and to cast them into the burning fiery furnace. Then the three men were thrown into the blazing furnace. They were wearing their clothes, hats, and other clothing. he king's order was so urgent and the furnace was so extremely hot that the men who carried Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were killed by the flames from the fire. So these three men-Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego-fell into the blazing furnace. They were still tied up. Then Nebuchadnezzar was startled. He sprang to his feet. He asked his advisers, Didn't we throw three men into the fire? That's true, Your Majesty, they answered. The king replied, But look, I see four men. They're untied, walking in the middle of the fire, and unharmed. The fourth one looks like a son of the gods. Then Nebuchadnezzar went to the door of the blazing furnace and said, "Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego-servants of the Most High God-come out here." Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego came out of the fire.
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Daniel 3:16-21
Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-nego replied to the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to give you an answer concerning this matter. If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us out of thine hand, O king. But even if He does not, let it be known to you, O king, that we are not going to serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up. Nebuchadnezzar was so filled with anger toward Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego that his face turned red. He ordered that the furnace should be heated seven times hotter than normal. And he commanded the most mighty men that were in his army to bind Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, and to cast them into the burning fiery furnace. Then the three men were thrown into the blazing furnace. They were wearing their clothes, hats, and other clothing. he king's order was so urgent and the furnace was so extremely hot that the men who carried Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were killed by the flames from the fire. So these three men-Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego-fell into the blazing furnace. They were still tied up. Then Nebuchadnezzar was startled. He sprang to his feet. He asked his advisers, Didn't we throw three men into the fire? That's true, Your Majesty, they answered. The king replied, But look, I see four men. They're untied, walking in the middle of the fire, and unharmed. The fourth one looks like a son of the gods. Then Nebuchadnezzar went to the door of the blazing furnace and said, "Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego-servants of the Most High God-come out here." Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego came out of the fire.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Why
Why should a woman as wonderful as Gayl be gone when so many other people, who are so evil, remain? This is an old question, but Gayl's good, kind, compassionate heart will be missed by all. The world is poorer for her abscence. Her wit, intelligence, companionship, and loving heart are missed by me; every minute of every day. There is so much I want to share with her. I cherish her.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
More
Gayl is the best person that I know. She and we never accomplished all that we wanted to. She had too much pain in her life, and too much hurt. There was a lot of injustice done to her. But, how sweet and giving she is. She never turned against God and always witnessed of His glory and love in all of her actions. She is so nice to be with. So easy to be with. And so smart and fun. So few women measure up. Gayl was right, I did not realize just how unique and special she was because I had not dated much. I thought most women were nearly as good as her. They are not. Gayl stands miles above them. Yes, I love her very much, so I am not unbiased in my assessment; but what I say is the truth. Gayl is wonderful. A great companion and wife. I miss her so very much every day, there are so many times I want to talk with her and share stuff with her. I miss her so. That does not even begin to say what it is like. Something has been pulled out of me, and it hurts. Hurts as in pain. Hurts as in sometimes it is hard to breath and even to take a step. And I still want to take care of her. She is in Heaven, but I want her to be happy and have joy and peace and to be honored. She hurt so much for so long, the pain was so agonizing at times, that she has suffered so much that I pray that she is given special, wonderful things; things in Heaven so wonderful that they are beyond imagination. But I do not even know how to ask. So I pray for her and ask God to bless her beyond anything that I can imagine. I just can't seem to stop taking care of her. Maybe people would understand if they had seen all the pain, all the hospital time, all the legal battles, and the stuff she had to deal with. I just want her to be happy; its OK if I hurt as long as she is OK and really happy. Truly, it is OK. What I really want to do is make sure that the people who hurt her are hurt in return. The legal system should be able to do it, but no one seems to care. So, its a legal battle I will have to fight on my own for her. I just wish that i had her help, there is no one else who I can trust and who I respect half as much. I love her so much, and I was so blessed by her. No one can imagine how much. I guess that's what makes this time apart all the more painful, I know that whoever I may meet will in no way fill in any of the void.
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Easter
Thanks to the Lord, I know that I will see Gayl again. My redeemer lives, so does Gayl.
Gayl always had class and style; she is not only a lady, she is a Christian lady.
I am proud of her, and humbled by her courage and strength in the face of impossible odds.
I cherish her.
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